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Once I made it to Walmart, I left Minion in the truck and made a beeline for Housewares to grab the totes I needed, then over to Automotive for gas cans and some extra oil for the truck and the chainsaw. I figured it was better to get things when I knew I could instead of pitching a fit on the side of the road because I’d forgotten something. I made one last pass through Men’s Wear to see if I could think of anything else I’d need, then headed for the doors.

Someone coughed.

I was pretty sure I was alone in the store. At least I had been. There hadn’t been any new cars in the lot. The two bodies I’d seen the other day had been right where I’d last seen them, the man’s body in worse shape than the woman’s. They’d both been picked over by scavengers, but he was more decomposed than she was, I guessed because she was in the shade.

They coughed again. I left the cart and headed for the women’s department, thinking they were over that way but didn’t hear anything for several minutes. I wasn’t so much concerned about someone else being in the store as I was curious since I hadn’t seen that many people still alive. I turned around to go back to the cart, and Damion was standing there, hanging onto one of the clothing racks to hold himself up. He’d been beaten badly. His left eye was practically swollen shut, and both lips were puffy. His left arm was hanging at an odd angle as well.

“You said you was gonna come back.”

My stomach sank. “I did. Drove by the gas station then came over here and didn’t see you either place.” I took a step toward him. “What happened?”

He shifted his weight a bit. It looked like his left leg was giving him trouble. “Some asshole from the Sheriff’s office. Dude snuck up on me when I was picking out some clothes, and clobbered me with his nightstick. Tried to fight him, then he knocked me down and started kicking the crap out of me.”

I had a hunch but had to ask. “You know his name?”

“Silver or something like that. Didn’t know him.”

“What happened after he was kicking you? How did you get away?” I looked him over for other injuries but didn’t see anything obvious.

“Somebody else came in right about then, and he took off to go after them. I went and hid out in the back for a while then came out here. Dragged a mattress and some sleeping bags back into the back and slept there last night. I’ve been up for a while, trying to figure out what I was going to do next. Ate some Pop-Tarts for breakfast and drank some milk. Then you got here. I was hiding because I didn’t know it was you. Wasn’t sure if that Sheriff’s dude was coming back.”

What am I going to do now? I’m supposed to be on the road now, going after my daughter. The only two people I had really spoken to were Rory and Ramiro, but I didn’t know if either one of them could really take Damion in. Rory already had plans of his own to leave town but I didn’t know how soon. “Damion, do you trust me?” That was asking a lot of him since he’d expected me to be there for him yesterday.

He wouldn’t look me in the eyes. Gave a little shrug. He wiped his face, a tear having started out of his eye.

I explained my travel plans in as much detail as I thought he needed. “There’s two guys I know of who survived and who I would trust to take care of my kids if I had to leave right now. One guy owns the Gun Bunker. Rory Wilson.”

“I know him. My cousin didn’t like him, because he wouldn’t sell him a gun one day.”

I stuck my hands in my pockets. “How come?”

He shrugged. “Don’t know. My cousin said it was because he didn’t like black guys. But my cousin been in jail a bunch.”

“I know Rory well enough that I don’t think it was because your cousin was black. Once you’ve been to jail a few times, you can’t own guns, so that was probably it.”

“Who’s the other guy?”

“You know Constable Thomas? Out in Precinct 1?”

He smiled a little bit. “Yeah. Everybody knows Rami.”

“Let me give Rami a call and see if he’s got any ideas. You okay with going out there to his place? His wife is okay. They haven’t heard from their kids.”

He nodded after a long minute, then wiped his eyes again.

It took me an hour to get everything taken care of for Damion. We made a quick run through the store to pick up some clothes for him, and I grabbed a few things from the first aid section just in case Rami wasn’t well-stocked. I suspected Damion’s arm was broken, given the way he was holding it. I wasn’t sure what anyone was going to be able to do as far as fixing it though. Jasper’s hospital had some excellent doctors, but who had survived?

Rami and Sylvia met us at my truck when I pulled up their driveway. There was another lady with them that I guessed was Stephanie Diaz, based on what Rami had said earlier. Given that they were likely the two highest-ranking government officials left in the county, it made sense that they would both be looking into what had happened to Damion. Sylvia led the boy into the house, Minion following them in.

“He say anything else about what happened? Ramiro asked.

I shook my head. “Pretty much just what I told you on the phone. You know, I never met the guy before this happened, so I don’t know anything about him. But I’m really beginning to not like him.”

“Adam?” The lady extended her hand. “I’m Stephanie Diaz. The constable told me what you told him about things at the jail. Are you sure Deputy Desilva was responsible?”

I shook her hand, then scratched my head. “No ma’am, I’m not certain. But I didn’t see any signs that anyone else had been in the building in that time. He said he wasn’t going to leave, but then he wasn’t there when I got back, and six people had been shot to death in the time I was gone. Those are pretty damning coincidences in my book.”

“Yes, well. Thank you for taking care of that boy. Constable, I’ll meet you inside.” She nodded to both of us then went into the house.

Rami shook his head. “You know, in any other situation, I’d go talk to the sheriff, and we’d bring the guy in just on the basis of the kid’s complaint. This? I’ve got no idea how to handle it. Stephanie wants to declare me sheriff, but I don’t know that we need to do that. I’ve got authority all across the state except for traffic offenses, and I don’t think anybody’s gonna be messing around with speeding tickets right now. But she’s got it in her mind that I need to be sheriff before I go arresting a deputy. I don’t know.”

I didn’t envy the situation he was in. “I think you’re right about not needing to be named sheriff. And if we’re getting technical about things, does she even have the authority to appoint you sheriff??”

“I’ve wondered that myself,” he said. “Haven’t researched it, but I don’t think she does. But I don’t know that I can convince her of that, and I don’t know what kind of a kink it would put in things if she is determined to make me sheriff and I refuse the post.”

I was torn, but only a little bit, if I were being honest. I really wanted to stay and help them sort this out. But my bigger responsibility was to my family. Hannah was waiting on me, and I still hadn’t made contact with Taylor or my ex-wives. I needed to be on the road, like now. We talked for another minute or two, and I gave him a couple of ideas. Then I went inside and said goodbye to everyone, and Minion and I hit the road.

We headed east on 63. I saw more of what I had seen the first day: several cars in ditches, and a couple of crashes at side roads. I wasn’t trying to set any land-speed records so it took me twice as long to get to Burkeville as normal, meaning fifteen minutes. Burkeville wasn’t quite half the size of Jasper, maybe a couple of thousand people, and it wasn’t even an incorporated town. But it was the first place outside of Jasper that I’d been to since this happened.

I stopped in the middle of town, which is to say I pulled up to the stop sign at 63 and 87 and shut the truck off for a minute. I had the windows down anyway because if you put aside the idea that most of the people I had seen in the last couple of days were dead, it was a pretty nice day out. Minion sniffed at a couple of scents that only he could pick out, swiveling his ears once or twice.

I couldn’t hear a thing.

This intersection wasn’t high-traffic. I wasn’t expecting a bunch of cars, but after ten minutes I hadn’t heard a single vehicle. A couple of birds chirped off in the distance but that was it as far as animals went. If I hadn’t been on a mission, I’d have poked around a couple of houses. But nobody was parked at the Family Dollar to my left, and there was only one vehicle at the parking lot for the Shell station, so I didn’t really see a point in nosing around. After another few minutes, I started the truck back up and continued east.

I paused for a minute or two as we crossed the Sabine River. I told myself that it was because I was looking for boats or fishermen or something like that. The reality was that after six years, I was leaving my adopted home for possibly the last time. I was still having trouble grasping the idea that my son was dead, along with millions of other people in the country, and probably billions worldwide. It had been one thing to sort-of abstractly say that I wouldn’t go back to Jasper. It was something else entirely to cross the river like this, to cross such an obvious border marker. Texas was behind me, Louisiana was in front of me. The past was behind me, and I knew little about the future that lay ahead.

We drove on.

Thirty minutes later, I let the truck idle through Leesville, Louisiana, the home of Fort Polk. There were 8,000 or so troops stationed here, supported by about twice that many civilians, although many of the civilians were family to the troops. Because Fort Polk was also one of the Joint Readiness Training Centers, it would more than occasionally have a couple of battalions or a brigade of troops gearing up for deployment to “the sandbox,” as so many people referred to Southwest Asia. Back in my day, the post had been home to the 5^th Infantry Division, with about 20,000 troops stationed there. But that was back in the years right after the Cold War ended when the U. S. had lots and lots of troops and nobody for them to play with.

Leesville was about the same size as Jasper, if not just a little smaller, at least by population, but it was a very busy place and felt larger, because of all the military activity in the area. On the west edge of town, I saw four people knocking at the door of one house. One person wore Army ACU camouflage, but the other three were in civilian clothes. As I drove by, they stuck a sheet of paper on the door and headed east to the next house.

Two streets later, I noticed papers on other doors. I stopped the truck at one house, too curious to ignore what I was seeing. The sheets were similar to the markings on doors used by Urban Search and Rescue teams after hurricanes. This particular sheet had “4-D” written at the bottom. If these teams were using the same codes FEMA used, there were four dead people in the house. I sighed and made my way into the center of town.

Two Humvees were parked at the intersection of Texas and 5^th Street, where LA-8 teed into US 171. It didn’t look like a roadblock, or even really like a checkpoint. One truck sat in the police department’s parking lot and the other waited caddy-corner by House of Prayer Outreach Ministry. I slowed to a stop by the first one. There was a sergeant, a black woman, standing by the driver’s door, and another soldier poking through the roof with what looked like a SAW in the gun mount. The other Humvee was parked on the other side of the street with a remote weapons station gun mount, but I couldn’t see inside. Minion let out an earsplitting bark as the sergeant approached, but his tail was going a mile a minute.

“Afternoon, sir. Where you headed?”

“The short version is, east. The longer version is that I’m heading up to Pennsylvania to get my daughter.” I stuck my hand out the window. “Adam Ktokolwiek.”

“Sergeant Jamal, 204^th MPs from Fort Polk. Where are you from?” She shook my hand, then pulled a notepad from her uniform pants pocket. I recognized chemical detection tape on her uniform.

“Jasper, Texas. About sixty miles west.” I looked around at the downtown area. Several blocks down the road, a car crossed the main drag. I had already seen more survivors here in Leesville than I had in Jasper. I look back at the sergeant. “It’s safe to assume that whatever happened is much more widespread than anyone could really imagine, isn’t it?”

“We’re still running accountability on post, but… Yeah, it’s not pretty.”

“You know, I was sent to South Korea as a supply clerk back in the nineties, in 2d Infantry, and we knew the Soviets had had a whole bunch of chemical weapons that could kill pretty quick, and that they had probably given them to the North Koreans or the Chinese or both. We used to do chemical attack drills all the time over there. But none of the stuff they trained us on could really kill this quickly, could it? On this kind of scale?”

She shook her head. “Whatever caused this, there’s nothing showing up on any of our NBC equipment.” She pointed to a gadget on her body armor. “We’ve run test kits on every body or vehicle we could, and nothing is registering. I’ve deployed three times, and we’ve come across some old stockpiles of things left over from the Soviet occupation, and stuff Hussein was playing with, but there was never anything I saw over there that could kill this many people so quickly.” We both looked around at our surroundings in that age-old manner of soldiers and cops everywhere who like to know where the lethal things are. “So would you mind giving me any information you’ve got? The garrison commander really just wants us to gather as much intelligence as we can right now.”

That made a ton of sense to me. I pulled my wallet out and handed her my license just for ease of passing information. “How bad is it on post?”

“Can’t say exactly, and you know how OPSEC is, but my guess is we’re down to about ten percent strength at best. The garrison commander right now is a captain from 49^th Engineers. She’s the highest-ranking officer we’ve found.”

“Have you been able to make contact with any other units?”

“Here and there. One Cav squadron at Fort Hood. A few people at Lackland. A Coast Guardsman in Houston. I think we’ve made contact with Barksdale, too. Not sure who else.”

Barksdale Air Force Base was the closest installation I could think of in Louisiana. It made sense they’d been in contact with them. If all else failed, someone could drive up there to see what was going on. I had to ask one more question. “What about NCA?” National Command Authority referred to everyone in D. C.: the Joint Chiefs of Staff, the Secretary of Defense, and the President.

The sergeant stopped writing and stared at me for a long time, then went back to making notes without saying a word.

That was not good at all. In an emergency like this, the radio and computer nets should have been jammed with messages between major commands and NCA. That’s how they set things like DEFCON and THREATCON. It’s how units knew when to get ready to deploy. If an Army post wasn’t in contact with NCA, our military was basically decapitated.

Then again, I doubted anybody was in any condition to attack us. Unless this was the attack. That didn’t make sense though. Whatever this Event was, it seemed to have killed entirely randomly, at least so far.

Sergeant Jamal handed my license back. “How are things back in Jasper?”

I shrugged, then told her what I knew, only hinting at the problems at the jail. I gave her Rami’s phone number, too, figuring that it couldn’t hurt for that kind of information to be passed around. “Can you see any rhyme or reason to who lived?”

She was quiet for a minute, swallowing hard, and I wondered who she’d seen die. “No, I guess I haven’t. Seems like the people who were asleep when it happened slept really heavy though. Like they didn’t even hear their alarms. I’m usually up by 0530, but with this, I didn’t wake up until one of my MPs smashed a window to break into my quarters. That was after eight. I never sleep that late, even on a weekend.” She looked away, but not quickly enough for me to miss her wiping her eyes.

“I’m sorry.”

She shrugged. “Charlie Mike. Continue the mission, right? What about you?”

“My son for sure. Haven’t been able to reach my exes or my other kids. They’re in Ohio and eastern Pennsylvania.” It was getting easier to say that Kevin was dead. Sort of.

She took a half-step back. “I should let you get going. Didn’t mean to keep you.” Her voice was a little softer now, not as business-like. She offered her hand, and we shook again. “Be careful out there. Don’t have much to tell you about conditions. We’ve got patrols out looking for information, but they only started today.”

“Minion will take good care of me, but thanks. You, too.”

Sixty miles later, I rolled into Alexandria.

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It was almost one when I finally went to bed, but I didn’t get to sleep until after two. After screaming and crying and cursing for an eternity in Kevin’s room, I’d started writing. That was how I dealt with a lot of things in life. It helped me clear my mind, or better focus my thoughts on a topic. I had dozens of short essays I’d posted on a blog, and sometimes people read them. Sometimes I’d be able to expand one into an article I could sell to a website or two, and make a few bucks here and there to go along with the rest of my writing.

I’d poured my heart out in a blank notebook I found in Kevin’s room, sitting there on the floor, wailing and moaning my way through the pain until I was spent and exhausted. Minion stayed beside me the entire time, always lying against me no matter how I shifted or sprawled.

I finally got out of bed around seven-thirty, although I’d been awake for half an hour. I scrambled the last half-dozen eggs in the fridge and split them with Minion, who was probably confused out of his mind at this point. His favorite human was gone, and his second-favorite human was feeding him all sorts of good stuff that he wasn’t usually allowed to have. “Don’t get used to it, buster. It’s back to the store-bought stuff tomorrow, and I’m not sure how long that’ll last.” He cocked his head and wagged his tail, as though the whole thing was one big adventure for him.

I still needed to get the chainsaw ready, go back to Walmart or Lowe’s for a few more storage totes, then get the last few things actually stored in the truck. I really wanted to be on the road by noon, but the more I looked at what I had to do, the less realistic that departure time seemed.

While I ate, I flipped around a few of the TV channels to see if anybody was showing anything current or trying to comment on what happened. KDFW out of Dallas showed a variety of feeds from different cameras, but there was no commentary. Dallas didn’t look to be in very good shape. I counted four fires including a large one by the airport. I hadn’t planned on going near DFW anyway, but this cemented my decision.

According to KHOU, Houston wasn’t looking any better. I assumed that most of the chemical plants and refineries had failsafes set up that would keep too much damage from happening, but there was still a fire going on the southwest part of town near the port.

It was a little eerie flipping through some of the cable channels and seeing reruns of Law & Order or NCIS and realizing that the entertainment industry was probably gone, at least as far as anything anyone would recognize.

An hour later, I wasn’t any closer to getting on the road. I hadn’t even left for my last few supplies. I’d started gathering up my electronics, then hit an emotional wall. There was plenty of stuff that I wanted to take with me, but there was no room in the truck for it and I couldn’t see a need for most of it. Kevin’s trophies were a perfect example. The events meant a lot to me. He poured his heart into baseball and loved the game. All of those awards and trophies represented a big chunk of his life. But he was gone, and there was little point in taking what amounted to deadweight with me.

Then I started wondering about my computer systems. I had a laptop that I was going to take with me, but I had a lot of software on my desktop that wasn’t installed on my laptop. Plus, I had an external hard drive that I used to back things up. Sometimes, anyway. I realized I couldn’t remember the last time I had backed up my writing files. So should I take the desktop with me? If I didn’t take it with me, I’d have to come back to the house after I picked up Hannah, assuming that we came back. But I had already pretty much convinced myself that there was no need to return to Jasper.

This trip suddenly had much bigger implications. I was probably leaving my house for the last time.

I sighed, then started unplugging everything from the desktop. It would have to go into another tote so that it wasn’t sliding around in the back of the truck. I’d have to make some time somewhere along the trip and copy everything over. But I didn’t have the time to do it now before I left, so it was going to have to go with me.

I did that with my clothes, too. It wasn’t so much a matter of memories there as it was about me trying to be prepared for different weather conditions. Then again, if things were as bad as I was thinking they were, there wouldn’t be a shortage of clothing for me to choose from. I did have a few favorite things, like a Texas A&M hoodie I’d picked up back when Kevin and I visited the campus. I made sure to grab that.

I lost another hour going through the house, trying to decide about different mementos. I had somehow ended up with the photo albums from both weddings. Should I take those? Or leave them here? I wasn’t sure if there was a need to take them because I didn’t know if I’d see either one of my ex-wives again. But if I left them here I’d still be faced with the idea of thinking I needed to come back to recover them. I sighed again then tossed them into another tub.

It was 11:30 by the time Minion and I rolled out of the driveway, heading back into Jasper. I had quite a few things stored in tubs in the back of the truck, but I had probably twice as much stuff tossed into trash bags and cardboard boxes back there as well.

About halfway down some road, I saw an SUV moving, the first vehicle I’d seen out and about since this thing started. It was Ramiro Thomas, our constable. He flipped his emergency lights on and off and rolled his window down to wave me to a stop. I pulled over and got out. Minion bounded out and barked at the SUV a couple of times before making his way around to sniff at the tires.  

“Adam, how are things?” He was overall a pretty laid-back guy the few times I had ever interacted with him. He had a deep, kind of gravelly voice that seemed to be more intimidating than his size. He was only about five foot seven, so I don’t know if he had actually cultivated that effect in his voice to compensate for his size or if it just came naturally.

“All things considered, I’d rather just be waking up and finding out this is all some weird dream.”

He nodded. “I take it Kevin didn’t make it?”

I shook my head. “Buried him yesterday morning. Out in the lake.” Neither one of us spoke for a long time.

“Sylvia made it. Haven’t heard from the kids, so we’re not very hopeful.” He picked up a notebook from the passenger seat of his car then started jotting. “You been in touch with anyone else?”

“Rory Wilson is okay, or at least was yesterday.” I told him about Rory’s wife and son. Then I filled him in on what I had seen at the jail

“Desilva? Part of that sounds like him. Part of it sure don’t. I can see him staying there until somebody relieved him. Really hard to wrap my head around the idea of him killing those guys in cold blood though.” He pulled his cowboy hat off, tossing it on the dash.

“I’d never met the guy before the other day. He sure seemed pretty hard-core about staying. And I had suggested that he turn those guys loose, but he was just as adamant about them staying as he was about him staying. I obviously didn’t see it happen, so I can’t say for certain. I couldn’t figure out how to go back in the surveillance system and review the recordings. Maybe he didn’t do it. Maybe somebody else came in and dragged him off. But the circumstantial evidence is pretty strong, you have to admit.”

He nodded. “I ain’t proud of it, but I’ve arrested people on less evidence. Anybody else you run into?”

I shook my head.

“Stephanie Diaz is the only person from any level of government that I’ve been able to get in touch with so far. We’re not really trying to organize anything yet, but we are trying to let people know that we are here and trying to get a handle on who’s left. Thirty or so in the city. Maybe another dozen here in the precinct. None of my deputies are answering the phone or the radio.” He was quiet for a long minute, then cleared his throat. “If you see anybody else while you’re out and about, let them know. Got my number, right?”

I nodded again. “I don’t know that I’m going to be seeing too many more people around here.” I told him about my travel plans. “I’m not sure I’m coming back. I don’t really have anything here to keep me here.”

He nodded. “I get it. If you’re heading out of state, it might not be a bad thing to go back to the dealership ‘n see if you can find one of their dealer tags. Might keep you from getting into too much trouble down the road. Any cops who survived this are likely to be wired pretty tight. If you get stopped and they’ve got contact with a dispatcher, that truck won’t show up as being registered, so somebody could give you a hard time about taking it. But you put a dealer tag on it, and they shouldn’t be able to say boo. Dealer tags don’t have car information assigned to them, because they switch them around so much.”

Anything that would make my life a little easier on the road was a good idea. “How’d you know?”

He smiled. “I was looking at that truck last week. My old Dodge is about done, and I like the topper. Then I saw it was missing yesterday when I drove by.”

“Speaking of missing…” I told him about the Jasper officer I’d found by the school.

“You still got that rifle?”

I jerked a thumb toward the back seat.

He opened his door. “Let me look at something real quick.” He got the rifle out, cleared it, then looked closely at the selector switch and grunted. “You real fond of this?”

“I grabbed it because I thought it couldn’t hurt to have a rifle and because I wasn’t sure it was safe to leave there. Not particularly attached to that one, but I’d hate to not have any rifle at all, you know?”

“Reason I ask is because it’s select-fire, so it’s restricted ownership. Remember what I said about cops being wired tight? The one I carry is semi-only. You want to trade? I can get away with having one like this easier than you can.” We spent a few minutes swapping things between the guns, then headed our separate ways.

I liked that he was looking out for me. He was like that with everyone, though. You had to work pretty hard for him to actually arrest you unless you had a warrant. But even then, he could probably talk you into getting into the back of his patrol car on your own.

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I drove past the Exxon after I left Rory’s place, and Damion wasn’t there.

I was only a little concerned. The kid seemed to be pretty street-smart, so I doubted he’d done anything completely stupid. Plus, I hadn’t seen more than two other cars moving about. I wasn’t sure what the actual death toll was, but I wasn’t expecting to find more than a hundred or so people left in town. Statistically, the odds were against a large number of those people wanting to do harm to others, and the odds were even smaller that one of those few bad actors would find him. Still, I had gotten just a little attached to him in the few minutes we’d talked.

I headed to Walmart.

The same cars and trucks seemed to be in the lot, although both the black man’s and the Latina girl’s bodies had been moved. The man’s body just looked like someone had gone through his pockets, but the girl had been moved over to the side of the entrance, and her arms had been crossed over her chest.

Minion and I made a quick circuit around the outside aisles. Even though I’d just told myself how relatively safe things were likely to be in a relatively safe town to begin with, I didn’t feel like calling out to Damion. I wasn’t sure he’d answer me anyway, for the same reasons. After twenty fruitless minutes, we got back in the car and went truck shopping.

The big question in my mind was gas or diesel. I knew both fuels had a fairly short shelf life, but I never really knew how long that shelf life was. I’d spent a little time last night researching the question, and I didn’t find anything definitive. Some sites said as short as thirty days for diesel fuel, and others said as long as two years for gas.

I ended up deciding on gas simply because I knew gas engines were just a little bit simpler than diesels. I’d never owned a diesel before, so I didn’t know what kind of regular maintenance they needed, and I wasn’t going to be able to call roadside assistance, so I stuck with what I knew. Fortunately, Jasper’s Chevy dealer was right next door to the Ford dealer, and they were both on my way home.

The sun was just setting when I finally pulled into my driveway. I only needed fifteen minutes to pick out a truck, but it took me over half an hour to figure out where the keys were and break into the cabinet. Then I decided I wanted the Subaru at the house, so I had to drive it back and unload everything, then drive Kevin’s Toyota back to the dealership and trade it for the truck.

I’d originally chosen a brand-new Silverado 3500, but then a used truck caught my eye. A three-year-old Silverado, it had both a brush guard and a bed topper, which none of the newer trucks had. It had four-wheel drive and the tires looked like they had plenty of tread left. The topper would protect the extra gear I’d be carrying, so I wouldn’t have to cram everything in the cab. And I liked blue.

I decided to live it up a bit for dinner and pulled a couple of steaks out of the freezer. I didn’t know what conditions were going to be like on the road, so I wanted us to have one good meal before we took off.

After dinner, I headed out to the garage to take stock of everything that I had gathered during the day. It was a little overwhelming to see everything piled on the floor, especially when I realized that pile didn’t include everything. I still needed to add some clothes, my sleeping bag and tent, and the rest of the camping gear that I had there in the garage. I was shifting one of the piles for the third time when Hannah called. “Are you doing okay?”

“So far, yeah. One of my neighbors survived. It’s Monica, that one girl that I told you about who gave me so much grief when she saw me and Ciera. But she’s the only person I’ve seen so far. How are things down there? Are you leaving tomorrow?

“I think so, but I’m not sure exactly when. I’m trying to get things organized and right now my piles are a huge mess. I’m probably gonna need to make one more trip to Walmart to get some tubs to organize things. It may not be until tomorrow afternoon that I finally hit the road. You gonna be okay for a few more days?”

She sniffled a few times before answering “I guess so. I don’t know that I really have a choice do I?” A laugh slipped out. “How’s Minion handling all of this?”

“He seems to be doing okay, for the most part. I think he was a little confused about what was going on with Kevin but while we were out and about today, he seemed to be trying to console a couple of people that we ran into. It was really kind of strange because I’ve never seen him do that before.” We talked about a few more things, like what kind of clothes she should pack.

“What are we going to do after you get up here, Daddy?”

“That’s a good question, kiddo, and I don’t really know. I can’t think of many good reasons to come back to Jasper.” I ran through all of the arguments I had mentioned to Rory earlier. “So I don’t really know where to go, but I think we need to get you out of the city. Major urban centers are probably not going to be all that safe for the next few months.”

“Why?”

“Right now you’ve got a whole bunch of dead bodies in a very concentrated area, and nobody to take care of them.” I wasn’t trying to be abrupt, but I didn’t want to come right out and explain in detail what was going to happen.

“What? Oh.” She seemed to catch on.

“Plus you’re going to be fairly limited in where you can grow food, and I don’t know what the water supply is going to be like in a few months. Everything seems to be running right now, but I don’t know how much regular maintenance those systems all need.”

“So we could just settle anywhere, right?”

“In theory, yes. I’m going to make a pass through Portsmouth to check on everybody there, but after that, we could pretty much go anywhere.”

“What about Mom? Can we look for Mom?” Her voice was barely a whisper now.

“Absolutely, kiddo. We’ll go by her place and her office, and see what we can find.” I was reasonably certain that none of the rest of our family members had survived, but I wasn’t going to take that hope away from her right now. We talked for a few more minutes, and then I begged off so that I could get back to work on loading the truck, hoping I could get a decent start on the road tomorrow. Neither one of us really seemed to want to hang up.

It took me another half an hour to get things organized the way I wanted them. I’d have to stop by Walmart or Lowe’s for some more plastic tubs, but I could do that on my way out. I also needed to stop and fill up the gas can for the chainsaw, and pick up a couple of larger spare gas cans for the truck. I didn’t want to carry so much gas that I would be a rolling bomb, but I wanted to have at least enough to get me fifty or sixty miles if I needed it.

By rights, I should have headed to bed at this point. I had a long trip ahead of me, and there was no way of knowing how well I’d be able to sleep while we were on the road. I was too restless to settle down though. My normal evening routine involved Netflix or something like that running in the background while I cruised Facebook or some of the writing forums. I couldn’t settle down though, couldn’t stop thinking. I couldn’t really focus on anything for more than thirty seconds.

I tried mapping out my trip but started getting frustrated at how slow my internet connection was – which meant waiting an extra quarter of a second for the page to download. I managed to get the directions printed out before jumping up from my desk to storm off into another pacing lap of the house.

I made it out into the living room where I caught a glimpse of a photo of me and all three of the kids. Hannah had showed up for a surprise visit last summer when Taylor had been down, and we’d had a bonfire in the back yard. Kevin’s girlfriend Ashley had snapped a pro-quality shot of the four of us, with Minion at my feet. The lighting had been perfect, with the sunset off to the side and the firelight just filling in the shadows. I couldn’t stop the tears even if I’d wanted.

A baseball trophy, one of several Kevin had won over the years, sat next to the photo. I never could figure out where he’d picked up his love of the game, but he’d made the varsity baseball team as a sophomore, and I couldn’t have been more proud of him. He played shortstop well enough that the Aggies and the Longhorns had looked at him as a junior. I stood there for a long moment, remembering all of the games I’d attended.

Then I wondered what the rest of the kids in the Jasper ISD were doing right now. Twenty-eight hundred students, give or take, and two hundred or so teachers – how many had survived? How many kids woke up to dead parents? What about the kindergarteners, and the rest of the young ones who couldn’t really take care of themselves? Who’d watch out for them?

I wandered into Kevin’s room, standing in the middle of the silence and emptiness. He should have been on his bed, propped up against the headboard, reading ESPN or Sports Illustrated, or tweaking some of his photography on his computer. He’d decided he didn’t want to play college baseball, but he was still focused on a sports-related career. He’d been talking to A&M about a combined program of sports management and communications that exhausted me just reading the course loads. It mapped out to almost six years, but Kevin had it planned so that he’d get it done in four-and-a-half by loading up with summer classes.

I sank to my knees there in the middle of his room.